Thursday, November 20, 2014

highway 65 at 65 (33)

arrow straight with crossroads,
farm houses tucked in for the night.

highway sixty five skirts
the bouldered hills and citrus rows

the cotton and cattle, the melons.
the alkaline and sagebrush homes

of kit foxes and kangaroo rats
playing hide and seek under

the stars, ignoring hot rod coupes
and flatbed trucks, weary farmers

heading for cool sheets and a glass
of sweet tea before dozing off

to a radio play or perhaps the soothing
songs of the Sons of the Pioneers.

over the Kern River bridge,
down Union, east on California

to Cottonwood Avenue.
past the horsehead wells

and jukebox sweat of the shot-
and-a-beer-for-six-bits clubs

to the sand patch shack where
Loretta lies curled in the dark

breathing carefully. Coasting
in with the motor off, they sit

a moment, quietly. Ruthie says,
Stay here, I’ll go see. She won’t

be scared of me. She slips in
through the hinge sprung door.

hears a moan, Ruthie is that you?
She hurries to the bed where

Loretta rises slowly, swings
her legs over the edge.

You ok, Loretta?
I will be, hon. Gimme a sec.

She reaches for a gin flask
on the pine night stand.

Bobby do this? how bad?
Worse’n usual, the motherfucker.

I didn’t tell him where you went.
I woulda if I knew, I’m sorry, hon.

Don’t worry, Loretta. I didn’t
realize he would think you had

anything to do with it. If I’d
known……  -Don’ worry Ruthie.

You had to get out of here.
What the hell you doin’ back?

Coming to check on you.
Where’s Bobby?

He went to meet that Smith.
Said if he can’t find you, he’s

gonna have me pulling trains
under the Chester Avenue bridge.

You can’t stay here, then.
Get your stuff together.

We’re going up to Teviston.
Oh no. I ain’t gonna go back

in the fields, had enough
of that. I’m too old to bend

over all damn day. bendin’ over
for ten minutes is my style, now.

You’re getting too old for that
too, Loretta, time to find a new

line of work. Like what, hon?
All I ever did was this or cotton.

I don’t know Loretta, but if you
stay here, you’re gonna end

up dead. One way or another.
Bobby’ll use you til you drop.

I know, I know. think I don’t?
Course not. We’ll figure something out.

But right now, I mean right now,
we gotta get out of Cottonwood.

What d’you wanna bring? Be quick.
I don’t give a shit. Gimme five minutes.

Okay. Five minutes. I’m gonna
get mine too. Bring it out to the car.


out of the hills (32)

the cobalt light of nine o’clock
has nearly swallowed venus 
the day’s heat mellowed now
and soft. soft as Ruthie’s cheek

feels to the back of his hand.
-still want to do this? yeah.
Green stands on the porch
with a mug of coffee and

a soapstone pipe, blows a plume
towards the last red glow of sunset.
-want some coffee? you’re going
to need it I expect. The three sit

unspeaking, lost in plots and paths
untaken or yet to be. Green sees
Maria laughing on the bench
he carved forty years ago.

-guess we should be going now,
 to get to Bakersfield by midnight.
-drive slow, the creatures are up
 and about. respect the snakes too.

 bring the young lady back soon.
 she needs to ride a horse and
 I know just the one for her.
-Thanks, Green. For everything.

at the foot of the path to the house
they look back and see him rocking
slowly, a puff of his pipe smoke
rising to merge with the Milky Way.

a short way down the gravel
valley road, five horses watch
the car approach, five sets
of eyes reflect the headlights

with a blue white incandescence.
three bays, a black, and a pinto.
-look at that little brown and white one.
-she looks just right for you.

no cars coming or going when they
reach the highway, first pavement
they’ve been on since late morning.
Henry accelerates towards the glow

of Porterville ten miles ahead.
Orange and grapefruit orchards
crowd the road on either side, fill
the evening air with their scent

and here and there clusters of 
smudgepots waiting for the winter
frosts, point skywards like silent
fanfares of rusty trumpets.

the Ford is getting thirsty, and
soon must have a bellyful of ethyl.
Mercury’s winged foot glows blue
and yellow above a Richfield station

at a crossroads outside of town.
-We’re gonna need some gas,
 you wanna grab that blanket
 and pretend to be asleep?

 -you want me to hide under it?
-Just trying not to attract attention.
-Under a blanket on a warm night?
 Isn’t that a little strange?

-Yeah. I’ll just tell the attendant
 my girlfriend is a little strange.
-Uh huh, guess that’s better than
 my girlfriend’s a little colored.

Ruthie drapes herself in the olive drab
army surplus wool blanket and slumps
down against the door as they pull
under the canopy of the filling station.

Moths and june bugs swarm the lights
over the pumps. -What’ll it be sir?
-Fill her up with ethyl, please.
-Yes sir, check the oil? -No. it’s fine.

The teenage attendant carefully
fills the tank, dips a rag in a bucket
of soapy water and begins to clean
the bug splattered windshield.

Any worries about his passenger
were wasted, the kid is thoroughly
entranced by the stripped down car.
-Taken her down to the dry lakes, mister?

 She looks wicked fast. What’ll she do?
-I had her up to a hundred and twenty.
 probably get another twenty with
 a taller rear end. But I like some

  low end grunt. Not just top end.
-Yeah, me too. She sure looks wicked.
-That’ll be three dollars for the gas.
-Here ya go, kid, take it easy.

Back on the road, Ruthie giggles
-Can I come out of the blanket now?
-Sure, we’re clear, what’s so funny?
-You men and your car talk. Rear ends

 and low end grunt. And the cars are
 always female. sounds kinda dirty.
-That’s right. and we didn’t even get
 to duration and lift or polished heads.

 Now I think it’s time for you to show
 me if you can handle four on the floor.
-I can handle the stick Henry,

 if you can handle the curves.

Wednesday, November 19, 2014

Junior (31)

Henry studies the ground under his feet,
pokes his shoe against the unyielding surface.

-This isn’t easy, Henry. I was going to tell you,
 but it didn’t feel like the time had come.
-Ok. So now it has, I guess. You were engaged,
 but now you’re not?
-It’s not as simple as that. He’s from Teviston too.
 Samuel. Sam Junior. Everybody just called him Junior.
 We grew up together, we were alway friends, especially
 in high school. Real serious when we were seniors, so
 we got engaged. We were already having relations..

-So what happened? Why didn’t you get married?
-He got drafted. We were gonna go ahead before he
 shipped out, but he was up at Ft. Lewis in Washington
 and couldn’t get leave and I didn’t have the money
 to go up there. Then they sent him over to Korea...
-yeah.
...and something happened over there. He was there
 about six months, then they sent him back. He was
 in the hospital for another three months.
-Badly wounded?
-Not physically. It was something in his mind.
 He wasn’t the same boy he was before he left.
-I know some guys like that. Saw a few of them over there.
-You were there, too?
-Yeah. I’ve only been back six months.
 Nothing like that happened to me, I was in
 the headquarters well away from the fighting.
 So what happened when he came back?

-I had gotten that job at the hospital and moved down
 to Cottonwood. Junior came back to Teviston so I went
 up to see him. It broke my heart to see how lost he was.
 He would just go out walking, day, night, didn’t seem
 to matter. Talking to himself. Or really it was like he
 was talking to someone who wasn’t there. The only time
 he was even kind of calm was if he was drinking.
 Then he’d just sit in a corner somewhere or out in
 the fields until he passed out.
-That’s rough, I’m sorry.
-Yeah. well it’s worse than that.
-How?

-Even if he had come back undamaged, things had changed,
 or I changed. I didn’t feel the same way as I did when he left.
 I was so ashamed.
-What about him? Did he still feel the same?
-I don’t know, he acted so strange. It was hard to tell.
 If he does, it’s buried somewhere.

-Okay. What’s the story now?
-My folks. They think that if we all pray hard enough,
 Jesus will bring him out of it. They kind of blame me,
 that I’m not putting enough faith in God.
-Damn! It’s all up to you and Jesus, huh?

-The thing is, I don’t know how much I believe in God
 or Jesus. I mean, not like that. Least not doing things
 like fixing people. fixing Junior.
-Miracles and all?
-Right. But Daddy and Mama believe. And when he isn’t
 out sleeping in the fields or wherever he goes, he stays
 with them. So if I show up there, with you, with anybody,
 but especially with you...-because I’m white? ...
-yeah, that too. I don’t know how they going to take it.
You understand?

-Yeah. I see the problem. So what do you want to do?
-I still have to do it. They’re gonna find out someway
 from someone. Better coming from me.
 I think if they meet you, they’ll see what I see in you.
-You think so? And what’s that?

-You’re a good man. I hope they can see that.

hatching the unforeseen (30)

Green hops down from his perch, says, I’m going to go up
and wash those dishes while you figure things out.

What about staying with your folks in Teviston while
I go down to Bakersfield? Bobby and Smith are supposed
to meet late tonight at that place on Edison. To turn you over.

Well that ain’t gonna happen. Why do you think you need
to be there?

Loretta. She made sure that Bobby was late getting to the
hospital this morning. What do you think he’s likely to do
if he figures that out?

He’ll be as cruel as a cat with a mouse, if he finds out
she did that. Crap. I never seen him do it and Loretta
won’t talk about it, but I’m sure he beats her. Some way
that don’t leave any marks. But this’s different. He’ll
see it as taking money out of his goddamned pocket.
His fucking money. Sorry. He’s a mean man. No damn
heart at all. And you? You’re the one he’ll wanna cut.

I know, so what are we gonna do about Loretta?
Can’t just leave her to suffer Bobby’s abuse. And I
want to see what the situation is with Gus and him
before we try and go back home.

Go back home? I don’t think I have one to return to, can’t
see how I can just go back to Loretta’s. Or anywhere in
Cottonwood, now. I don’t see how you can either. Both of
them will be after your head. We don’t have jobs, a pair of
rattlesnakes are looking for revenge, I think Bakersfield is done.

You’re right. It is. That’s why I thought you should stay
in Teviston. And I don’t want Loretta to pay the price
for us, you know?
No. And she ain’t gonna. I’m going with you. She’s my cousin.

It might get real crazy. I don’t know Bobby very well,
but Gus Smith is capable of anything. He’s a poisonous disease.

I understand. But you don’t always have to be the big hero.
I can help and I’m going to. Especially taking care of Loretta.
What did you have in mind? Taking her up the Kern?

Yeah, there’s some trees I wanna…….
oh shut up.

Sorry. Okay, But you gotta promise me to stay
back if things go bad. You know how to drive a car?

I think so. Enough. I had a friend who let me drive a couple
times. I can do it if I have to. Even this jalopy of yours
What about that gun under your seat?

It’s empty. It’s just big and scary looking. No bullets.

What? You might as well paint a target on your chest.
If Bobby or Smith are packing, they sure as hell won’t be empty.

I know. I don’t plan on getting into any gunfights with them.
In fact I don’t want them to even know I’m there.
Well that’s a relief! I don’t want to be shooting any guns.
Good. Let’s give you a little driving practice on the way down.
If everything goes well, you won’t have to. Then we’ll
go up to Teviston and Fresno. I think we gotta see our folks
before we go anywhere else. And we need to figure out
where that’s gonna be.

Yeah. We do……There’s something I need to tell you about,
……….before we go see my folks.
Ok…… like what?
Ruthie strokes the seat carved in the massive fallen limb,
where Maria’s fingers had smoothed the wood when hard
words needed to be spoken to Green over the years since
he carved it with a hatchet.


There’s a boy up there in Teviston. We were engaged.

Tuesday, November 18, 2014

round about sunset (29)

Henry’s reading bookspines: proceedings
of the California Legislature 1852 to 1948.
many bookmarks inserted in the pages. 

Spines of snakes and skunks.
hawk skulls, fox feet, antlers.
Paine, Nietzsche, and Wilde.

Joyce and Dreiser and Keynes.
Amethyst, obsidian and gold. Gold?
A row of nuggets, in between

the eggs of towhees and tanagers.
Dry thistle heads and the works of
W.E.B. Dubois and the desiccated

feet of snow geese. This Mr. Green
is a man of many parts it seems.
He and Ruthie come back to the kitchen.

What took you so long? I was
beginning to think you got lost.
We did.

What’s so funny? Oh nothing.
Green knew you were going to say that.
We just got all caught up talking.

Oh. Alright. Anything I can help with?
You could bring in some kindling for the stove,
it’s right outside the back door under the little shed.

While he’s outside, the old man says,
You need to tell him. Soon.
I know. I will. It’s just that…. -Tell him.

Soon the fire in the stove is burning hot
and the beans are ready. They spoon them
over thick slices of the cornbread nesting

in white speckled blue enamel bowls.
The two young folks polish off their servings fast.
These are delicious, I didn’t know I was so hungry.

Me too. -Help yourself to more, there’s plenty.
Thanks. Ruthie dishes up another helping
for them both. When they finish, Green gathers

up the plates and spoons and stacks them
in the kitchen sink. I’ll do these later,
lets go out and enjoy the sunset.

The sun, low above the horizon, bathes
the porch in a blaze of late afternoon heat.
Green says, there’s a cooler spot around the side.

Leads the way down a gentle slope to a huge valley oak
with twisting branches the size of lesser trees. One of
the limbs lies on the ground beneath it, a victim of age

or termites or storms or four century’s gravity.
One side has a long section hacked out with an ax
and smoothed with chisels into an undulating bench.

The living tree above shades it from the low sun.
The view from the bench is back up the valley
towards the ridge from which they’d descended.

Sycamores along the dry creek bed, oaks and scrub pines,
buckeyes in their summer nakedness. Green points
to a well worn concave section wide enough for two.

Ruthie and Henry settle into the contours which fit
as if they had been carved especially for them.
Green says, I carved that place for Maria and me

forty years ago. We sat there for many years. It still has
her shape. Looks like it fits the two of you. -Yeah. Just right.
Works better when there’s two. He eases himself into another

cup shaped notch a few feet further along the branch.
They watch the changing light in silence for awhile.
A ground squirrel in the old oak bounces along a branch 

over head, then scrambles headfirst down the trunk
and leaps over to the bench. Bounds over to Green.
He reaches into his pocket and brings out a handful of grain.

The squirrel stuffs his cheeks with the offering then
jumps down and runs off into the tall dry grass.
Ruthie says, How cute! Does he have a name?

Yes. But I don’t know it, I don’t speak squirrel.
He’s putting in his winter supplies out there.
Keeps him fat through the winter.

Have you come up with a plan yet?
I’ve been thinking about it,
but it’s hard to figure out

what’s going on back down
in Bakersfield and Cottonwood.

Gonna have to go there to find out.

all that glitters (28)

I thought you said that miner
never found any gold. He didn’t. I did.
And you haven’t done anything with it?

What would I do with it
that wouldn’t destroy this place?

The mining companies? Isn’t this Indian land?
It is. Think that would stop them?
They could take it?

Not easily. They’d find a way to buy us off.
Nothing that would last more than a few years.
And for what? Cadillacs and swimming pools?

Are your people so easily bought off?
Are yours?
I don’t know, nobody has made the offer.
Would you take it?
I can’t even imagine what that would be like.

Did you ever imagine what you did today?
Never in a million years. I’m just worried
that I won’t be able to keep it.
Of course you can, it’s already happened.
This day belongs to you, it can’t be taken back.

I know, I know, but I want more days,
I want years, hours, minutes, a lifetime.

And perhaps you’ll have them.
But you only get them one at a time.
So right now you need to figure out
how to get tomorrow. Do you think
you can get it back in Bakersfield?

I don’t know. It’s dangerous. For both of us.
But I don’t know what else we can do, least ‘til
we have some way to get out of there.

What about your family? Or Henry’s?
I don’t know about Henry’s folks.
Mine live down in Teviston. Probably
won’t be real happy about me and Henry.

Why is that?
There was a boy, a man. We were engaged.
Were?
Yeah, never called it off officially, but he,
he was drafted and they sent him over to Korea.
Something happened over there and they
sent him back. And he ain’t the same
sweet boy who went over there.

He was wounded?
No, something happened to his head.
It’s like some part of his mind
didn’t come back with him.

War does that to some.

My folks keep praying that he’s going
to get better. They tell me that I got to be
patient and put my trust in Jesus.
So what you think they going to be like
if I show up with Henry?

What about you? Do you still love him?

I loved the boy who went away.
But you know, we were just kids. Never been anywhere
very far from Teviston. I know it’s not the big world,
Bakersfield and Cottonwood,
working in the hospital…. but I know that
I want something more than churning out
half a dozen kids and cooking eight kinds of pies.
So I don’t know. It might a been different anyway
even if he hadn’t come home the way he did.

Have you told Henry about him?
No. I figured I’d have to sooner or later, but the right time
just hasn’t come along. We only met yesterday. Seems like
a different lifetime though, Lordy, does it ever!

That’s because it was.

I guess it was.......how do you.......?
Oh I’ve had many lifetimes myself.
You mean before this one?
Does it matter?
Yes. No. I s’pose not.

He hands her a canvas bag with the cornbread.
Lifts a big cast iron pot with both hands off a table
built between two posts shoring up the mine.
Let’s go back inside, your young man
is probably wondering if we got lost.


Green's house (27)

At the car, Ruthies says I’ll ride in back. climbs in,
squeezes Green’s shoulder.

Go back to the junction and take a right,

The road beyond the junction
climbs up to the crest of a ridge.
Between sparse trees they see
the patchwork quilt of the Valley
dimmed in the dusty afternoon haze.

Turn up there on the right,
just past that dead pine.

A narrow gravel road winds down
into a long valley cloaked in chaparral. 
Deep ruts force their pace to a crawl.
At the bottom of the valley
the road levels out, twisting along
the dry bed of a seasonal creek.

Ruthie leans forward, peering between the men.
You live way out here? How do you get around?

Anyway I can, walk or on a horse,
catch a ride with friendly strangers…..

-Like us? 

No. I mean strangers…. you’re not… 
let me ask you,  you ever been on a horse?
No, never have. When I was a little girl, I wanted to.
Come up sometime and ride.
Really? I would love that!
I’m sure you will.

Half an hour later, Green says,
stop up there by the big rock.
The path to my house is there,
but this’s as close as you can drive.
Stay on this road. You’ll come to
the highway about fifteen or
twenty minutes from here.
That’ll take you down to Porterville.
But I’d suggest you wait until after dark.
So you won’t attract attention.
Porterville isn’t a sundown town,
but you two would catch anybody’s eye.
I think you’re right.
We’ll wait til it gets dark.
Be a few hours, come up to my house.
Want to meet some horses, young lady?
Can we?
Of course. If they’re around. They have the run
of the place, they might be out until later on.

Henry parks the car beside the granite
outcrop protruding from the hillside.
A hard beaten path leads up the hill
to a small house of rough-milled planks
with a corrugated metal roof tucked in
under a grove of blue oaks.
The porch has a view of the valley, 
with pair of wooden rocking chairs at one end
and an old church pew beside the front door.

Have a seat. I’ve got some sun tea, would you like a glass?
Yes please.
Be right back.
They sit on the pew, Ruthie leans on Henry.
I could live in a place like this.
I know, it feels so good just sitting here.

Green comes back with a big jar of deep amber
tea and three Woolworth’s uranium glasses.
You want some sugar?
Ruthie says she would and Henry says he’s got
all the sugar he needs right here, pats Ruthie’s knee.
She says me too, but I like some in my tea.

He passes her a faded green enamel tin and a spoon.
Mmmm. This is delicious! How do you keep it so cold,
you have an ice box way out here?
No. no ice box, no refrigerator. I let the earth keep things cool.
Like a root cellar?
Bigger. Somebody thought there might be gold up here
back in the 1860’s. He started digging into the hill.
Goes in about a hundred feet. Never found any gold,
far as I know, but it stays cool all year round.

Henry says, this is a real nice place.
How long have you been here?
Oh many years now. My wife and I built it
when we got married. She died six years ago.
I’m sorry.
It’s alright. I miss her, but sometimes she’s still here.
Her spirit?
Might be. Or just her memory, who knows?
I promised you horses if they were around,
I don’t hear them. I think they must be out
sleeping somewhere. You’ll have to come back.
Yes, we will. I want to ride a horse.


I bet you’re hungry.
Please don’t go to any trouble,
we’ll get something down in the valley.
That doesn’t sound like a very smart idea.
We’ll figure something out.
What about you, Ruthie?
I think this young lady needs to eat.
I could eat a bit. But really if it’s a bother,
we can figure something out.
No trouble. I’ve got some cornbread and a pot of beans.
I’ll just heat them up.
Sounds delicious.
C’mon inside while I heat them up.

Green holds the screen door open and gestures for them
to enter. The front room is small, with a braided oval scrap rug
in the center and two threadbare stuffed armchairs flanking
a small table with a kerosene lamp sitting on a doily.
A small potbellied stove in the corner. Against one wall,
 a bookcase jammed with several hundred books and
various feathers, odd bits of animal skeletons and skulls,
rocks of many colors and sizes.

Please, make yourselves at home.
Ruthie says, mind if I come with you to the kitchen? I could help?
No need, but you’re welcome if you want to see the kitchen.

The kitchen is as simple as the front room.
A thick knife-scarred table in the middle, a cast iron stove
from the 19th century. White cupboards with nickel hinges,
a few shelves with tins and jars, chipped ceramic crocks.
A white porcelain sink on metal legs with a bucket under
the the drain. A hand pump sticks up through the floor.
Green says, the beans and cornbread are out in the mine,
come on back with me.

They go out the back to a heavy wooden door set into
the collar of the mine in the hillside behind the house.
Green swings it open and takes a candle off a shelf just
inside the door and lights it with the ember of a Basque
shepherd’s lighter.

Planks worn smooth run down the center. Twenty feet
into the shaft, shelves fill the space between the posts
framing the mine. A ham hangs from a hook further back.

Ruthie examines the shelves. There are jars of canned
tomatoes, peppers, okra, corn, cucumbers, and squash,
more bins and bags. On the floor beyond the food stuffs,
stout wooden boxes filled with rocks.

She picks one up, a chunk of white quartz veined with gold.